Three Bodies, Two Churches, and One Rick: A Mississippi Meditation on Chaos and Faith

Part 1: The Poolside Paradox — Visualizing the Three-Body Problem at Indian Point Teardrop

It was just a pool at Indian Point Teardrop—chlorinated, calm, and forgettable to anyone but me. But floating there, I saw something move—not in the water, but in the fabric of meaning itself. That’s when the three-body problem finally clicked—not in math, but in metaphor.

The three-body problem, in classical physics, describes a deceptively simple setup: three objects in space interacting gravitationally. Predicting how they move seems like it should be solvable. It isn’t. Their orbits spiral into chaos, each mass tugging the others unpredictably, endlessly. There’s no clean equation, no tidy map, just a storm of possibility.

As I floated in the Teardrop pool, I imagined the three bodies: myself, the Sun, and one other person—present in proximity, memory, or maybe just my thoughts. The gravitational pull between us felt real. I could sense the tension between mass, motion, and metaphor—how each moment of closeness or distance created its own strange orbit.

I saw the way decisions looped. How moments swerved. How trying to balance self, solar pull, and social force was like floating between stars with no propulsion but instinct and inertia.

And then, I left the Teardrop pool.
And left my phone charger behind.

Part 2: Rick, Morty, and the Charger Shift

That night, after drifting in the pool at Indian Point Teardrop and visualizing the cosmic chaos of the three-body problem—myself, the Sun, and one other gravitational question mark—I realized I’d left my phone charger behind. Small mistake. Ordinary, forgettable.

But I didn’t forget.

I changed superpositions.

Whether by instinct or intention, I made the decision to return—to re-enter the coordinates, revisit the timeline, and reclaim the object I had left behind. Something about that felt weightier than it should have. Like I had collapsed a possibility field just to retrieve a simple piece of plastic and copper. But as I moved through that act—literally rewinding my path—I started to feel the edges of something bigger.

That’s when I watched Rick and Morty Season 8, Episode 1.

Summer and Morty, in their universe, were punished for leaving behind a phone charger. And Rick—ever the manipulator of chaos and control—used it as justification for trapping them in a convoluted morality simulation. A matrix. A lesson. Or maybe just an experiment in narrative punishment.

That’s when it clicked.

Rick wasn’t just being a cartoon sociopath—he was a stand-in for the matrix logic itself: a force that notices even the smallest deviation and answers with disproportionate consequence. And by going back to get my charger, I hadn’t just altered my day—I had triggered a synchronicity. A storyline reflection. A loop that had to be acknowledged.

Maybe the charger wasn’t the point at all. Maybe it was the test. Or the key. Or the clue that I was inside something recursive. Rick’s punishment wasn’t just fictional—it was familiar.

And it all started at the Teardrop pool, when I changed my position in the simulation.

Part 3: The Misspelled Church and the Ocean Pull

Back on solid ground, away from the Teardrop pool and the cartoon matrix, Mississippi reasserted itself—humid, holy, and human. And just like celestial bodies with wildly different densities, two churches in South Mississippi began pulling at me from opposite ends of the spiritual spectrum.

On one side stood a church with a sign that reads “Lilly” with two L’s, a linguistic hiccup that never got corrected, as if the typo was too sacred to touch. And here’s where the simulation slipped: Rick is the actual pastor.

That’s not a metaphor.

The man behind the pulpit is named Rick. I had just watched Rick and Morty, had just left behind a phone charger, had just visualized the three-body problem at the Indian Point Teardrop pool—and then I found out that the literal Pastor Rick presides over a church orbiting spiritual entropy and phonetic anomaly.

On the other side of the gravitational pull stood another church, clean-cut and well-aligned, where Pastor Ransom leads with composure, structure, and a kind of spiritual geometry. If Rick brings grounded presence, Ransom brings symmetry.

I wasn’t attending either that day. I was just… caught between them.

Not as a tourist in the pews, but as the third object in a gravitational dance—unpredictable, pulled, reactive. I could feel it. One church called to the part of me that sees metaphor in misspelling. The other called to the part of me that craves symmetry and clarity.

Each church had its own mass.
Each pastor, their own force.
And me? I was the unpredictable orbit—a body in a system no simulation could stabilize.

Part 4: The Mississippi Trinity

In classical mechanics, the three-body problem is famous not for its precision—but for its unpredictability. You give it three simple masses and initial conditions, and it gives you chaos. And yet, there I was in South Mississippi, standing in the middle of a perfectly unstable trinity: myself, Pastor Rick, and Pastor Ransom.

Three masses.
Three minds.
Three points of gravity that, through some strange alignment, started to define the orbit I found myself in.

Pastor Rick wasn’t some chaos agent or cartoon echo. He was sincere, steady, and grounded in his role. But in the context of everything I’d just lived—visualizing the three-body problem at the Indian Point Teardrop pool, forgetting and retrieving my charger, then watching Rick and Morty where Rick punishes his family for doing the same—it was impossible not to feel the simulation wink at me.

The synchronicity wasn’t about his style.
It was about his name.
The fact that the real Rick stood at the pulpit in a church with a misspelled name the very day I wrestled with chaos, recursion, and cosmic messaging—it felt like alignment.

Pastor Ransom, by contrast, brings a more polished, structural gravitational field. His presence feels more defined, more anchored in clarity and tradition. His sermons are organized. His leadership resonates like a planet with consistent orbit—predictable, but powerful.

And me? Still the third object.
The one whose path is never quite the same.
Not because I can’t choose—but because I’m in motion between two fixed forces.

This isn’t a story of choosing sides. It’s a story of recognizing gravity. Recognizing that even when things seem like coincidence, there’s a dance playing out. One where names, signs, physics, and faith swirl around each other in ways that suggest a pattern just beyond our ability to map.

The three-body problem isn’t a puzzle to be fixed.
It’s a rhythm to be felt.

And maybe I was never being punished for leaving that charger behind.
Maybe I was just meant to feel the pull—and follow it back.

Conclusion: Gravity, Grace, and the Glitch

In the end, nothing about this felt planned. And yet everything felt placed.

A pool in South Mississippi, dubbed the Indian Point Teardrop.
A charger forgotten, then retrieved.
A Rick and Morty episode about punishment for the same.
One pastor named Rick.
Another named Ransom.
And me, orbiting it all.

Maybe it was just coincidence.
Maybe it was simulation.
Maybe it was God.

Or maybe, like the three-body problem itself, it doesn’t resolve into a single explanation. Maybe we’re not supposed to solve the equation, just experience the movement—to feel how certain names, certain events, and certain gravitational pulls collide in ways that suggest a pattern just beyond our ability to map.

I don’t claim to understand it.
But I’ve seen it.
And for a moment, in a chlorinated metaphor under the Southern sky, I was in the middle of something too precise to be random—and too strange to be staged.

If there’s a lesson, it might be this:

In chaos, look for rhythm.
In entropy, look for echoes.
And when life pulls you back over something as small as a phone charger—maybe go. You might find your position in the universe has shifted just enough to see it differently.

Disclaimer: This post was written with assistance from ChatGPT, an AI developed by OpenAI. While the writing process was collaborative, the events described are 100% truthful and based on real experiences.

A snake in the lens

This is as true a statement as I can make, it occurred on April 22nd, 2025

The day I ran out of Colgate Kids toothpaste, that I purchased from the 5 Below near the Matrix house Neo is staying at I found a snake skin in the yard and also Neo lost his actual lens down the sink/sync.

Get it? I spit toothpaste down mine and when I run out, he loses his lens down his and has to get a new one when my repair solution failed to materialize a lens to repair. I wonder what would have happened if I had kept the colgate tube rather than trashing it. Would Neo had found the lens in the trap and cleansed it? Things that make me go hmmm in a metaphysical world.

This is the contact lens for the same eye that when I stared into at the Golden Nugget on the April 20th 2023 Solar Eclipse I saw a snake chasing it’s tail in a figure 8 pattern.

The snake is coming full circle. Time to make sense of it.

Update: Coincidentally, the day I wrote this, the Julia married to the Saturn Time Cube got a tatoo on her hand with snakes in it, unbeknownst to me until I finished writing. Snake in eye 4-20-2023, snake skin in Yard 4-22-2025 just after Pope Francis’s death and Matrix Toothpaste tossed with a lens went down the sink/sync. All completely explained, but way to coincidental to not be divine.She says it’s got being a survivor of sexual abuse. Which is weird, as that’s where my own trauma originated from. Fuck you Phillip Mcalpin, he’s the snake that robbed me of the voice that still has not returned.

 

An Apology to the Matrix

Dear Matrix,

I misread you—not just once, but ever since the energy shift earlier this year at least.

Around February 2025, a friend went to Warri, Nigeria to clear the memory of a Ram on my behalf through a Voodoo ritual. I’ve recently come to understand that he may have been bewitched during the process, contaminating the intent behind the sacrifice. Since then, he has not acted as promised. He’s currently recovering within the Canadian healthcare system, if there’s any truth remaining after the spiritual conflict.

On May 16, 2025, the Nigerian government adjourned his case but in the process brought to light the flaws in the Voodoo. The delay centers on the outcome of a “tesseract-type” device crypto that could determine whether the Blackspot of corruption is removed once this completely aligns at zero. It was supposed to be an invisible process, but the authorities intervened, citing crypto’s illegality. Nigeria is unpredictable, but I remain hopeful for a positive resolution. Judge Julia suddenly has much to consider after receiving both an officer’s testimony and my letter.

Unbeknownst to me at the time the corruption began, I had begun preparing myself to live in devotion to J in February. I was submitting my loyalty—ready to live a life aligned with that light. But instead, J declined what he perceived as too much trauma from my past. He understandably chose not to entangle himself with unresolved pain while still undergoing his own cleansing. He didn’t transmute my trauma as I believed he could. Perhaps a future version of him might—but the 22-year-old Neo, still in training, wasn’t ready. Turns out he was right to do so at the time.

I’ve been following a guiding light that began with the 45.8 lb. brick of lead Donal received for Christmas 2016 from my brother. Synchronicities, x17 light, and suspicious C guidance have taken me this far—but have often annoyed those around me. Looking back, I now see I was focusing only on the intensity of synchronicities the proposed x17 light was part of, not their polarity—positive or negative. There were signs I ignored that I’m seeing now.

For years, I’ve been curious by the difference between duality and non-duality, but I dismissed it in favor of the light of the T Meta Structure and its emotional momentum. I assumed I would never be misled by the light. I have constructed it poorly thus far, there is only one light. No Dual. When trust was confirmed to have been lost, it started making sense my error.

The RAM’s memory was wiped with contaminated intent—unknown to me at the time. It was the right call for J to not accept me then. He may have been spiritually affected as well. Now, I must retreat into a safe space and give myself the time to reflect and reinterpret reality. Non-duality deserves respect. There is only one light, and it must be interpreted—not merely measured for meta-intensity. That’s an overwhelming challenge in a world where everyone and everything offers and receive only a fraction of time.

As one part of this healing, I’ll be measuring the Mississippi healthcare system. I want to avoid making excessive errors. For someone spiritually betrayed and seeking clarity, the bare minimum healthcare can be essential. Mississippi has to be one of the better spots for getting the bare minimum while I figure life back out.

The T Meta Structure Model is my version of Nick Bostrom’s Simulation Theory but where Jesus died for our sins and was the First Observer of the Divine Signal. My lifetime intent is to remove the corruption and lies that exist within it. I have failed for several months now.

I know this process is mostly invisible, and none of you may yet recognize the truth as I see it. But I’m working through that. Assuming I don’t declare excessive errors within this Matrix, I’ll return soon. I swear everything I’ve stated is as truthful as it can be.

My apologies, Matrix. I underestimated you.

Sincerely,
Todd
The Dictator
Human